Happy Cancer Girl

A Happy Girls Journey with Cancer

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

on January 31, 2013

I had the opportunity to go see my gynaecologist yesterday and talk about my past surgery, my upcoming surgery, my scans and anything else I wanted to talk about. Each time I see a doctor I learn a little bit more about what is going on with me. Of course each doctor has their own opinion about various treatments, but I take that bit with a grain of salt.

As I said early this week, I have been having some pain in my stomach. I was sure that it was the endometriosis as the pain was very similar to pain I’ve had before. I’ve been concerned about the endo the surgeon wasn’t able to remove and what it means for me after my next surgery. Will I still experience pain? Thankfully it turns out that most of my endometriosis is on my uterus and ovary which will be removed, but I also have a lot on my pelvis and my bowel and back wall. I’m not 100% sure what my back wall is, but I guess it’s the back of my body (not my actual back). The surgeon doing my hysterectomy is also a colon specialist, so hopefully he will be able to remove some of the bowel endo. Fingers crossed that when it is all said and done the pain is gone.

I found out the results of my latest scan. Turns out in a matter of weeks I went from having a clear right ovary to growing another 6 cm cyst. The pain that I am feeling could possibly be coming from this growth. I’m not going to lie, I was shocked beyond belief. I just had surgery in November, she showed me pictures, my remaining ovary was swollen but didn’t have a cyst on it. This news also confirms Β that I am making the right decision. The sooner these organs are out of my body the better. Only 2 more weeks to go!

Something a little random on the scan…they think I have a small belly button hernia. I don’t…it’s scare tissue from my last surgery.

The good news is, it looks like my lungs, breasts and lymph nodes are free of cancer!!! If this is the case during surgery and the cancer hasn’t spread outside of my reproductive system, I will only be in Stage 1 or Stage 2. I didn’t think that I would be in a later stage, because I did have surgery in November and it’s not like they were in there and saw cancer anywhere else, but it was great to hear that the scan’s look clear!

After the appointment I was left with many mixed emotions. I am thrilled that I am probably free of cancer in other areas of my body. That is a huge win for us. I am angry at my body for growing another cyst. I’m hoping that most of the endometriosis can be removed during my surgery. I’m scared about my recovery.

I was going to end this post with the Stand Up to Cancer song that came out about 3 years ago, but it’s sad and it makes me cry and I don’t need any more sad stuff, I need fun and happy stuff.

For those of you who have known me for most of my life you probably know that I LOVED New Kids on the Block when I was a kid. I think I begged my mom to take me to one of their concerts, but I never had the chance to go…I’m sure they didn’t come anywhere near NB. Back in 2008 the New Kids came out with a new album and went on tour and I took my mom. I was so excited to go and see them. It was like a dream come true. Anyway, NKOTB will be releasing another album this year and are going on tour this summer with 98 Degrees and Boys II Men! Unfortunately they are going to be on tour during my chemo so it’s not very likely that I will see them again this time, but I will remain a fan. They released a new song this week so I’ve decided to add it to my post and I will have an 80’s dance party in my kitchen!

8 responses to “The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

  1. Megan says:

    Lots of news/info for you to take in at one time. I understand why you would be angry and exhausted about all this – it seems like every time you turn around there is more info to try to understand and then explain to everyone else! I’m so thankful you created this blog – and I hope you are enjoying writing it as much as I am reading it! Take care Renee and as always, I love you!

    • I actually love writing, this blog has been a great outlet! I’m glad you are reading along. πŸ™‚

      It was a lot of info to take in yesterday but I’ve processed it and hopefully can move on and focus on the next two weeks. I have lots of stuff to get done before my surgery. Love you too!

  2. Sasha says:

    Ok, I am laying here on my bed super pissed off cuz my car won’t start & I have a million things to do & a meeting that I have to reschedule & kids that are going to be late for school blah blah blah. And then I read your blog & think Sasha, seriously grow the hell up! A car not starting is nothing.
    So so so glad to hear it hasn’t spread to other parts of your body!! But that is a lot to process.
    Haha NKOTB, my faves! And this song will brighten my mood today πŸ™‚

    • I think that we all have stuff in our lives that make us mad and can be stressful, they say “don’t sweat the small stuff”, but it’s hard not too, so I understand where you are coming from this morning! As a fellow NKOTB lover listen to their old stuff to brighten your mood! Takes you back to the days when you couldn’t drive, or we didn’t have to worry about cancer or bills or kids or anything but how we were going to convince our parents to buy us the new Bop or Tiger Beat magazine!! πŸ™‚

  3. Patsy says:

    God love ya, Renee ❀ That's a lot of info for one appointment!

    This is my theme song for the days that overcome me with worry/anxiety…during Arlen's last surgery, I must have listened to it 30 times – and when I wasn't listening to it, I was humming/singing it. Simple, uplifting and calming…not booty shakey but…happy!

    PS: Lauza's theme song as well – when I'm stressed, she sends me a link to it πŸ™‚

  4. Thomas says:

    Thanks for sharing your story. I wrote a song about cancer when my sister in law got breast cancer at age 24. I hope you enjoy it and possibly find it helpful. Here is the think. http://youtu.be/GcSJJoUHL_0 thanks again.

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