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A Happy Girls Journey with Cancer

I Lied…This Sucks!

on April 8, 2013

I have said that losing my hair wasn’t going to be a big deal to me, but I lied. I didn’t lie intentionally, I really believed I would be fine. Last week I decided that I should cut my hair off to prepare for chemo. I was ok while my hair was being cut into a short pixie cut, I only shed a couple of tears. When Owen came home from work I burst into tears, I hated how I looked. Thankfully he is a wonderful husband and comforted me. He says he likes my hair cut. I hope he doesn’t get too used to it because it won’t be here for long.

I was able to see Owen’s parents, one of his sisters and her children on the weekend. It was nice to have a break from the hospital and to spend time with family. I also had a girls night at the movies (thanks ladies, it was needed)! We went to see The Host, I loved the book and found the movie to be pretty good.

I am currently sitting in a big leather chair having the pre-chemo drugs pumped into my body. I will try to blog about it tomorrow.

Hope you all have a good day!

36 responses to “I Lied…This Sucks!

  1. K Cook says:

    Aw, Little one. Keep your chin up, you are so beautiful you would shine no matter what you have on your head! Deep breaths, lots to be happy about…just keep breathing! Big hugs

  2. dana says:

    Thinking of you Renee. You are beautiful no matter what. Big Hugs

  3. How about I grow out my hair for as long as you have short hair? Just think, I would look like Friar Tuck after a few weeks 🙂

    Thinking of you and sending hugs!

  4. Patsy says:

    It would absolutely suck. Fortunately, you are surrounded by people who love and respect you for all that you are and all that you do. I would be traumatized as well, I’m not going to tell you not to be upset over it because I sure would be.

    We will do anything to make your day brighter and try and put that smile back on your face!

  5. Amanda says:

    Hey! I think your new do looks great!! fingers crossed today goes well ❤

  6. NotDownOrOut says:

    It sounds like you’re getting plenty of love from the right people in your life, but the virtual community hopes this shall pass soon leaving you well and with a head of new shiny hair.

  7. goldeygrad97 says:

    I know how you feel. I didn’t think losing my hair was going to affect me as much as it did. I hate pictures of me right now. I don’t have an issue with people seeing me without the hair (although mine is coming back, and didn’t ALL fall out the 2nd three rounds of chemo) but for some reason I hate seeing MYSELF.

    This too shall pass. I promise. Until then, be thankful the hair is shorter while you are enduring the worst of the hot flashes. *hugs*

  8. Lory says:

    Ur beautiful inside and out girl! Hair or no hair! Xo

  9. Anita Finnamore says:

    Hi Renee Praying for you. Renee with your pretty face and that great big smile you will always be BEAUTIFUL. Love Anita

  10. Hi Renee, don’t feel to bad look on the good side once you get done all them treatments you will have beautiful hair, but you should look a ok with your short hair you got a pretty face and a pretty smile.but glad you got one under ur belt one treatment closer for you , one treatment less to be wearing on you shoulders,, but good luck and keep smiling,ttul AFA Lee Ann.

  11. sherry kirkpatrick morton says:

    Hi there sweet angel I love the hair dos Mayda looks quite adorable love the curls on you both.
    I’m glad you have gotten through the 1st treatment my prayers will be for you to come through this with as little discomfort as possible. Losing your hair is a big deal and more that you have one more thing to deal with. When I looked at that picture it reminds me of when you were a little girl and what big beautiful eyes you have.

    Love you Auntie Sherry

  12. Megan says:

    Thinking of you lots today!

  13. Sue Thibodeau says:

    Thinking of you all the time Renee. Losing your hair will be horrible for you – I know – but it sounds like Owen will be wonderful for you through this – lean on him – he won’t mind. You are a beautiful person no matter what. Call me sometime – I have some neat tricks for hair pieces/wigs and hats!

  14. Lori says:

    I know you wouldn’t have chosen to cut your hair Renee but I can understand wanting to have some control over what is happening in your body right now. I bet it looks cute – just different! – maybe you’ll decided to keep it short when this is all behind you?

  15. Natasha says:

    Renee, you are a very strong woman!!! I admire everything that you are doing to deal with this. I’m not sure if I could be so positive and strong myself. Long hair , short hair ,no hair…you are still going to be Renee as beautiful on the inside as on the out. Keep Braving on and beat this son of a bleep!!!! CHEERS to a strong young woman.

    • Thanks Natasha, I am able to get through my days with the support I am receiving! Thanks so much for your kind words, they are greatly appreciated! I hope you and your family are doing well.

  16. Hi Renee,
    I’m thinking of you. I think head scarves look really nice on ladies, they bring out the eyes.
    You will get through this, and before you know it you’ll be on your last chemo session. When my mum went through her treatment for breast cancer she drew herself a treatment snake. She sectioned the snake off and coloured a section in everytime she had treatment. It kept her focused on the end when all the snake would be coloured in. It’s a bit silly I know, but she liked to talk about how many parts were left and how many she got through. Do whatever helps.
    Thanks for commenting on my blog, I only wish you’d had the same diagnosis. Lots of virtual positive vibes are coming your way. Xxxxxxx

    • I love that idea, something to focus on and too see visually! I hope your recovering nicely, I’m sending your lots of healing thoughts! At this point I would say my surgery was worse then my first chemo session.

  17. zcher says:

    Just think, you may even get a surprise when it regrows! If you normally have straight hair it may grow back curly or vice versa! And in the meantime, you can play around being Sasha Fierce or any other character that strikes your fancy. It does suck to lose your hair, but it is a sign of the strength you have. Hang in there!

    • I have/had pretty straight hair, so it would be a wonderful surprise if it comes back curly. I keep telling people it will probably come back completely grey. I’m glad I cut my hair off last week, I’ve had a chance to get used to it and now I’m not feeling as bad as I was! And your right I can have fun with all of the head gear!

  18. Aunt Mimi says:

    I keep thinking I am going to look on your blog and see you with fushia colored spikey hair…and you doing a fist pump…GIGGLES!

    • Ha I would love to dye my hair fushia, that would be pretty crazy…but I’m not supposed to dye it now that I’ve started treatments. However, you can keep the picture in your mind for the giggles!

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