Happy Cancer Girl

A Happy Girls Journey with Cancer

Cancer Free Trip

on May 19, 2014

A few months ago a friend of mine called and asked if I would like to go to New York City. I’ve been to NYC and I don’t really like going back to the same place more than once (if I’m going on a vacation), because there are so many places in the world that I would like to see. However, I have travelled with this friend before and we had a lot of fun so I decided to go.

When I arrived at the airport I was really excited, not just the usual excitement I get when going away, but REALLY excited. My friend was a little baffled and said that it’s not the first trip I’ve been on…so what’s the deal? This was the first time since my diagnoses in Dec. ’12, that I was going away and it had nothing to do with cancer. For me, this was a big milestone. I was away from everyone I know, my hair is short, but looks normal, my skin colour doesn’t look grey and I have enough energy to last me for a few days. No one (except Denise) would know that I had been sick.

We did a little shopping, a lot of walking, learned the subway system, saw a couple broadway shows, ate some good food, went to Chinatown and most importantly the American Museum of Natural History. The Museum was amazing, if we had more time I would have wanted to go back. We would be lucky to have seen 1/4 of the exhibits.

The worst part about the trip was that it was really warm and the apartment we rented didn’t have any air-conditioning. Normally that wouldn’t bother me, but because I am still going through menopause and having hot flashes, I found the heat a little unbearable. With that being said, it was calling for rain the whole time I was there and we only got rained on one night after seeing Hedwig and the Angry Inch (Neil Patrick Harris is in this show until sometime in July, if you are in NYC you should check it out), so I tried not to complain about the heat too much.

My time away was wonderful and it was cancer free and I’m really glad that I went. I have had a lot of pent up anger about a lot of different things, and I think I left most of that anger on the streets of NYC. I think with each new experience I am learning how to grow and move along. After the retreat I went to in May (that I wrote about last post), I came home feeling more whole. I was able to work through some of the feelings I had about recurrence and some of the loneliness I have felt. NYC (although cancer free) really helped me relax and just let go of the anger that I’ve held onto. In a couple weeks I am going back to Toronto for a conference with Young Adult Cancer Canada, and I know it will help me along with my healing process.

Todays song is featured on the soundtrack for The Fault in Our Stars called Tee Shirt by Birdy. The movie comes out in June and is based on a book by John Greene. The song is beautiful and makes me think of Owen, enjoy!

5 responses to “Cancer Free Trip

  1. I have thought of you often as our paths crossed when The Get Well Gang sent caps to you. I have used your wonderful pictures in our hats to share with others and today our group has donated over 26,000 caps. My son has also walked in your shoes; the only difference is he lives with cancer as they have been unable to find a treatment which would allow him to be cancer free. Having walked this journey at his side I understand some of your emotions. Not in the first person but watching him deal with the unfairness, the long waits, the not knowing, the suffering and the fear. I had written a story which I call Through a Mother’s Eyes which is my son’s journey but as seen through my eyes. I have never been able to afford to get it published but if at any time you think you or a friend would like to read it I do have a few copies printed up. I wish you well in every endeavor and most of all I wish you good health and cancer free for the rest of your life.

  2. This is really good to hear! I am so pleased that you had a good trip and it was all for the purpose of having fun! They’ll be plenty more of those to look forward to, I’m sure. You derserve lots of fun trips like this after what you have endured over the last couple of years. Be proud of yourself 🙂

  3. Lee Ann Buxton says:

    Well Hi Renee”its been really nice reading your Blog “as always love reading your blogs”you must be finally starting to feel a. bit better and thats great”love to read the excitment in your blogs” you make it sound possible that anything can happen to help people out and I am really glad your starting to feel a lot better . not a day goes by I am not wondering how you are doing.think about you a lot.Like the way you look at life and what you’ve been through you’ve have come a very long way .and keep sending your Blogs just love reading them. and thanks again for being such a great and wonderful friend.Afa Lee Ann.hugs coming your way .

  4. sherry kirkpatrick morton says:

    Glad to hear you had such a great time. The fault in the stars in on my must see movies for the summer/

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