Happy Cancer Girl

A Happy Girls Journey with Cancer

The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

I had the opportunity to go see my gynaecologist yesterday and talk about my past surgery, my upcoming surgery, my scans and anything else I wanted to talk about. Each time I see a doctor I learn a little bit more about what is going on with me. Of course each doctor has their own opinion about various treatments, but I take that bit with a grain of salt.

As I said early this week, I have been having some pain in my stomach. I was sure that it was the endometriosis as the pain was very similar to pain I’ve had before. I’ve been concerned about the endo the surgeon wasn’t able to remove and what it means for me after my next surgery. Will I still experience pain? Thankfully it turns out that most of my endometriosis is on my uterus and ovary which will be removed, but I also have a lot on my pelvis and my bowel and back wall. I’m not 100% sure what my back wall is, but I guess it’s the back of my body (not my actual back). The surgeon doing my hysterectomy is also a colon specialist, so hopefully he will be able to remove some of the bowel endo. Fingers crossed that when it is all said and done the pain is gone.

I found out the results of my latest scan. Turns out in a matter of weeks I went from having a clear right ovary to growing another 6 cm cyst. The pain that I am feeling could possibly be coming from this growth. I’m not going to lie, I was shocked beyond belief. I just had surgery in November, she showed me pictures, my remaining ovary was swollen but didn’t have a cyst on it. This news also confirms ┬áthat I am making the right decision. The sooner these organs are out of my body the better. Only 2 more weeks to go!

Something a little random on the scan…they think I have a small belly button hernia. I don’t…it’s scare tissue from my last surgery.

The good news is, it looks like my lungs, breasts and lymph nodes are free of cancer!!! If this is the case during surgery and the cancer hasn’t spread outside of my reproductive system, I will only be in Stage 1 or Stage 2. I didn’t think that I would be in a later stage, because I did have surgery in November and it’s not like they were in there and saw cancer anywhere else, but it was great to hear that the scan’s look clear!

After the appointment I was left with many mixed emotions. I am thrilled that I am probably free of cancer in other areas of my body. That is a huge win for us. I am angry at my body for growing another cyst. I’m hoping that most of the endometriosis can be removed during my surgery. I’m scared about my recovery.

I was going to end this post with the Stand Up to Cancer song that came out about 3 years ago, but it’s sad and it makes me cry and I don’t need any more sad stuff, I need fun and happy stuff.

For those of you who have known me for most of my life you probably know that I LOVED New Kids on the Block when I was a kid. I think I begged my mom to take me to one of their concerts, but I never had the chance to go…I’m sure they didn’t come anywhere near NB. Back in 2008 the New Kids came out with a new album and went on tour and I took my mom. I was so excited to go and see them. It was like a dream come true. Anyway, NKOTB will be releasing another album this year and are going on tour this summer with 98 Degrees and Boys II Men! Unfortunately they are going to be on tour during my chemo so it’s not very likely that I will see them again this time, but I will remain a fan. They released a new song this week so I’ve decided to add it to my post and I will have an 80’s dance party in my kitchen!

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